wow...I wrote a journal today too...normally it much longer between them but I just have to tell about the strange dream I had..

I dreamt that I was running away from something, I believe I ran away from home. I know I was going through at least two of my old schools (collage and a "adult school") before reaching a small "kvik-e-mart" type of store (where you can get the basic things like milk etc).. I know I sat outside on a bench and had a "chart" of colorful pills. I ate them one by one til there was only one left... Suddenly I changed my mind and spit all of those I already had taken out. The last pill I crushed under my shoe. Then I got to my feet and started to walk home again. Halfway I met one boy from one the 6th grade classes I teach and I saw that he was sad and crying. Asked him why and he replied "I dont want you to leave".... after this I woke up and the sadness I felt yesterday was gone...

Im sure it will be more "sad attacks" but still...just this...sudden change...